am i changing??

i felt like i was in the wrong
path..i go to
kl for study but then i turn into this bad side..I'm not
sharms
that my friend
told before..I'm different person with the
wrong
thinking ..i
was so shock when
my friend give me this
matter
and we
start to
quarrel..she wants me to
realise....but i was
truly in the
complex
situation..i need
somebody to hear my
feeling...as i turn away
from my
friend.,i
guess
i found my new
sharms in the
other side....i
felt like
I'm
having
a bad things...I'm
sorry for destroy my
dream...and i
don't know
whether the man that i
used to dating was men that could
change
every things
in my life....i want
him to know that i love
him...i
don't
want
to make fun on
this
relationship..i
want a
serious
relationship..if he don't love
me....i
will
leave...